Throughout high school God and the Bible were a reality that I could not excuse from my mind.  I believed in Heaven, and wanted to go to whatever links it took to ensure that I would one day go there.  As I read the bible and observed others, I lived under the misconception that there was something I could do to earn Gods favor.  That if I was somehow good enough, God, would excuse my sin and welcome me into His Kingdom.  I lived my life building a spiritual resume to one day hand to God.

However, as I spent time in the Word I would see commands that I knew I did not have the ability to live out.  This frustrated me and caused me to despise God as I viewed Him as a hard master expecting to much from me.

Upon entering college, a Campus Outreach staff guy built a relationship with me and begin to ask me spiritual questions.  I was interested and began to investigate the Bible with him.  Upon examine Scripture with him I soon found that I had nothing I could offer to a Holy God.  Even my good works were polluted with sin.  I remember loosing hope and feeling as though, on my own, there was no way I could be saved.  Then I was shown Romans 3 and how there is a righteousness found outside of the law, but through faith in Jesus Christ.  At that moment I saw Christ as my only hope for salvation and gave control of my life to Him, desiring to follow wherever He willed for my life.  This was the first time I saw God not as a hard master, but as a loving Father who provided a way I could be saved!